Leonids Story and my view

Leonids Story

This short animation captures the emotional part of survivors from Chernobyl Catastrophe 1986. It uses a narrative way to show a family‘s emotional dimension and life after the tragedy.

Leonid and his family move back to his hometown in year 1985, Prypiat. They have a simple living in this modern yet beautiful town until spring 1986, where the nucleus power plant exploded. This nucleus power plant is located only 3 km away from the Prypiat. Leonid who is a police officer is ordered to stay in the contaminated town to continue his job. His pregnant wife and son are evacuated from the town after the explosion. Leonid’s wife insists to carry on the pregnancy where she was advised to stop the pregnancy after the explosion. Leonid works in the contaminated area has caused him end up with severe health problem throughout his entire life. His new born son also suffers from diseases since born as the result of the radioactivity release from the explosion of the nucleus plant. After the tragedy, the Prypiat town has become a death town; the inhabitants have been evacuated to different areas. According to this film, there are only 300 people out of 1100 villagers live near Kopachi (village in Prypiat where Leonid’s family stay) survived.

The story tells us about the serious impacts brought by the nucleus power plant. The Chernobyl 1986, three miles island 1979 , United States and the recent incidents in Fukushima, Japan have warned us about the hidden risk of the nucleus power plant. Many countries claim that they have sufficient technology in prevent or emergency management handling if the explosion and leaking of the plant occurred, however there is no 100% safe for this nucleus energy and a huge price is needed to pay, incidents in Japan, Ukraine and United states have shown us very clearly.

Today, everyone is talking about sustainable development. Sustainable development is the development where human need is fulfill and at the same time the nature and environment are preserved , hence the need for present and future generation are promised. Nowadays, we are running off the non-renewable energy like fossil fuel, and many are urging to seek for renewable energy. Nucleus has been a choice for certain countries due to its high energy production capability, however incidents occurred in past decades has show that nucleus energy wasn’t a best solution for energy crisis, huge price for nature and environment, even unexpected consequences need to pay for this nucleus energy. Based on the concept of sustainable development, our world is considers as a system that connect space and time. So, anything happen in one part of the earth will eventually affect another part of the world. In the case of Chernobyl nucleus power plant explosion, not only affect Prypiat or Chernobyl, but its effect is to the whole world- radioactive particles released to the air or seawater and etc.

Policy makers and scientist as well as the social community have to look in depth on the impacts and consequences of the energy selection in future. Social community has the responsible in choosing the future development of the country. The rigid control of information by policy maker like what happened in Chernobyl when set up the nucleus plant near the town and during evacuating the people after the explosion, do not tell them the truth should not exists. For a sustainable development, everyone has the responsibility in deciding the future and has also responsibility in preserving environment when making a choice for development.

Happy New Year

"1.1.11, happy new year and welcome to year 2011. May new year fill with good luck and greater smile."

My 2011 was started in "look out point", KL where i was accompanied by, of course my friends as well as beautiful KL Nightview and many fireworks.

2010 is a year that make me growth a lot. 2010 is a year of transition for me, from a fresh degree graduate and trapped in between of working and further study and i , i choose the latter one and existing i m sure that i have chosen the right path for myself. Besides, the health problem that arose in 2010 have further increase my independence in facing difficulties and i have learned to face the pain, emotion with greater determination. Even though it is tough when sicked , but i'm glad to get through this tough moment with support of family and friends. i would like to thank God for arranging this challenge to me as it really make me growth a lot. i m no longer a small girl that over protected by my family, instead i have my own plan and clearer mind toward what i want in future.

End of 2010 indicate the closure of the previous chapter and 2011 is a beginning of new chapter of life, not only for me but also for all of us. Hope more growth, colourful and meaningful life will be jot down in the chapter of 2011.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

也许吧！

也许可将之诠释为不确定，可能，无法肯定的说法。 也许是对的，也许是错的。

也许人生就是要这样有过如此多的也许吧！也许我的选择是对的，也许我还不确定我的想法是对的， 也许我是有感觉的， 或也许是我想的太多了，也许实事并不是我想的那样，也许是错觉吧！总总的也许让我开始不知所措了。

本以为我会免疫了， 不再想了，本以为开始了新生活，就会摆脱过去的阴影，本以为我已安与现状，不再想了，但事实却不是这样的。

是喜欢， 是错觉，是寂寞，还是真的， 我已搞不清楚了。 我不想就这样，真的很累。我要有自己的生活，有自己的梦想，我要活出自己。 也许这就是过于自私，自我的做法，但我真的怕， 矛盾中。

不懂为什么他就这样不知不觉地走进了我的心，一开始并不特别，但渐渐就一点一点占据了我的思绪。 身边的鼓励促使往前一步，但内心的恐惧却让脚步往后退了，不是第一次了， 却每次都是不了了之。不敢看透他的想法，担心不是所想的，而是错觉。想要勇敢点去面对他，却又退缩了，情绪起伏总绕着他。很开心可以常见面，却担心下个月以后很难再相遇，就那么短暂的时间，能有变化吗？

感觉这东西能控制吗，不是一个理智的人，但却想要当理智的人，徘徊于当中，很累的。为何不能豁出去，勇敢面对；还是一切随缘，不强求呢？

多拉A梦，你可否从百宝袋里掏出一面读心镜，让我知道他想什么，可以吗？也许是机会，也许知道了就不再浪费时间了。

我重回马大的日子 1

毕业后，身旁的朋友都各奔东西了， 有的回家乡，有的出国工作，有的我也不只道去了那里。而我那里都没去，也没回家，而是选择留在马大继续读书。 现在回头数一数，我的硕士生涯也已经三个月多了，第一个学期也将近结束了。

我的硕士生涯，说忙不忙，说闲不闲，但它的确让我成长了不少。

不管在学习方面或生活里我确确实实得到了不少有别与以往的经验。 我开始觉得我渐渐对我所学的东西越来越感兴趣，也更能肯定自己的选择是对的。 哈哈哈。

不过在生活上，旧朋友的见面越来越少了，一大群人去唱K, 吃大餐的机会也少了好多好多。以往三五好友通宵畅谈的情景已不再了，大家都各忙各的，开始了新生活。 如今和知己的时间少了， 但是给自己的时间确实多了。一个人的时间多了，偶尔会觉得寂寞，但是却让自己能好好认真的思考，让自己更独立去面对所有的事情，也让我成长了许多。（ps: 独自在图书馆的时间也越来越多了，哈哈）

（摘至：jsonsw-7.deviantart.com）

在现在读书生涯里， 除了知识之外，我还有许多东西是需要学习的，要学习及适应一个人的同时也要学习去认识新的人与事，去适应种种的生活变化，也更要照顾好身体，健康没了什么都没了。

Medicine and I

What will you respond when doctor tell that you have to take medicine for whole of your life?

"Oh my god !" This is my first respond when i heard doctor said this.

I keep asking doctor can i use diet to replace the medicine after some period of times. He said he still recommend me to take the medicine because the amount of calcium from diet may not enough for my body. Haiz.....haiz....haiz. So, the result is i still need to keep swallowing these medicine.

First come to my mind now is picture of medicine that are going to be part of my life from now till the end of my life.

(Source: http://lafilletedelapieuvre.blogspot.com)

i'm just 23 yr old now. That means these medicine going to follow me for 30 or 40 years or even longer ( If there is no 2012- end of the world). Now only i realize the important of keeping healthy and fit body.

Since last February, when my pain started for a very first time, i "gained" different experience , like entered emergency room for several times, tried on Chinese medicine, wear neck collar, went for backbone x-ray test. However after months and months, the symptoms and pains still keep going on.

Until early of July, again i entered the emergency room in UH, with blood test, doctor realized the extreme low level of calcium in my blood. So, he referred me to have further check up in RUKA. Again with the second and third different types of blood and hormone tests, the result shown that my parathyroid hormone and calcium were in the extreme low level. So, doctor in RUKA again referred me to see endocrinologist,Dr Alex.

Doctor told me that my case is very rare since i m still young, and with such extreme low level of calcium i still able to walk, run, going on my normal life , it is even rare. Should i consider i m "lucky" to get this rare hypoparathyroid and hypocalcemia !!!

ps: so, colourful medicine, since i cannot say no to u anymore , so let become my friends from now on.

First Experience in Bone Density Test

Thursday was my first experience in doing a scanning for bone , or we can call it as the bone density test. This was my first experience in doing this test. A part from curious, i was nervous too because i can't imagine how the test will be done. ( Doctor asked me to do the test because i m currently suffering from hypocalcemia , hence he want me to check out the density of bone)

Once i enter the University Malaya Medical Center (UH), immediately i went ahead to the "radiology center" which actually took some distance from the main tower because the center is located somewhere in the east tower.

Here i'm going to tell you some of my process in doing this bone density test. ( this is just a brief from my own experience, so do not take it too serious)

First, i passed my form and started my register procedures in the reception counter in front of the "radiology center". After that i have been assigned to pay the fee in the payment counter, but luckily with the"surat jaminan" from student clinic Um , i don't have to pay.

Then, i waited in the waiting corner until my name was called. When i entered the room, what i saw is a big machine, a computer and two young ladies physicians. one of the physicians. They ask me to lay on the bed under the machine.Then , one physician started to adjust the machine while the other one was controlling and key in the data such my height and my weight into the computer.

( source of the image : http://www.osteoporosisexpert.com/)

After that, she started the screening for the backbone follow by the the right leg. it took a couple of minutes for each scanning process. The next thing to do was waiting for the result. After a while, the physician gave me an envelope which covered the entire result, she asked me pass the result to doctor in next appointment. The result was full with different numbers,data and graph which i was totally not understand at all. So the result for the bone test can only know in detail after i meet Dr Alex next Monday. Hope that everything will be fine.

p.s: Bone density test is actually a test used to diagnose a bone disorder which known as osteoporosis. During the test, a special kind of x-ray machine is used to take picture and measure the density of the bone. (source: http://www.ehealthhut.com/)

2010 新的一年

2010 年， 我既将要毕业了。 对我而言，毕业就是人生的另一种开始。毕业，意味着将步入社会，迈向全新的生活，将成为一名朝九晚五的打工族，也许幸运的将成为老板，开拓自己的事业。

2010 年 一开始物品又开始起价了，糖起价了，连我最爱的面包也起价了。哀哉，哀哉。今后的生活费又要加加加了...haiz

2010 年 离2012只剩两年了，哈哈，在世界末日前要更珍惜身边的一切人，事与物了。可不要带遗憾离去了。

2010 年 明天又要去上课了，要收拾假期的心情了。

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010